Piece of Expresso!

I created a word name "Expresso". Not sure does it actually had this word. Haha! Got this idea through the words of express. Whatever it is, I love this word so much. :)

Few thing shared here. First of all, today's weather really cool enough. Raining for the whole day and I'm in cold and feeling sleepy. But one thing shocking me a lot is I'm hungry for every seconds. I ate non stop today. End up, my tummy also grow bigger too. Guess I will fat enough soon. Should happy about it or sad about it. 

Second thing was dinner dilemma. I was actually damn happy to had my dinner with my family. But guess what? Someone totally spoiled my mood. I hate that someone approached me or others as "noisy" person. Hello? We're family and we're supposed to talk and share things around. It's fine if you hate it but please don't intruded. It's getting me out of nerves when I appreciated my life with family but end up being approached as "noisy" person. Do not change others to follow exactly what you want. Learn to respect. Anyway, my anger had subside fast enough. :)

Third things was my junior praised me. Something to happy about actually because people can see my effort in cheering up my life. It's true that I might still under the process of recovering but some good comment made up my day! I will try my best to color my life because I want to [SET MYSELF FREE]! 

P/s : I have made up my mind. I will buy SE ELM J10i...... =)

Lil stars, you're always my guardian angel :)

Undecided Moment!

At last I'm back to my beloved hometown and the feeling is so great! Enjoy myself so much. Today itself I went to shopping with my mummy, two younger sister and of course, my nephew! It was alright even though few time I was in middle of frustration due to some reason. Hehe, forgive my too-fast-change of mood. :)

Suppose plan to take McDonald as lunch but end up crowded with many people so we gotta no choice but to ate at Papa John's. The Pizza's was quite ok but I will still prefer Pizza Hut. Wootz! After lunch, we went to shops at few selected retail and I managed to bought two short pants and a shirt for my CNY's clothing. Maybe tomorrow will drop by Klang Parade for second shopping session. =P

Oh yeah! While we loitering around, I managed to went in Sony Ericsson's shop to check about hp. As my previous post mentioned about I will getting myself a new hp, so I done my research on prices and get some look towards those selected hp. End up, none of under my so called list of hp attract me. The sales person recommended me two type of SE's hp which are J10i ELM and Spiro W100i.

Selected photo :

Sony Ericsson J10i ELM
Have two color which are Black and Pink.

Sony Ericsson Spiro W100i
Have four color which are Black, Pink, Green and White.







Both of hp has own specialty. But, the camera for SE ELM is better than SE Spiro. Because ELM consist of mega pixel while Spiro consist of 2 mega pixel. But Spiro is Walkman's hp. And prices for both also different. ELM is RM599 and Spiro is RM299. Sighs. Hard to made decision on which to buy actually. Because both also attracted me a lot. :(

Hope tomorrow I manage to made up my mind. Sighs. Logging off.

Happy > Sad ♥

Oh yeah! At last I'm hardworking enough to post piece of "essay" about my days recently. I had successfully adjusted my timetable and started this week itself, I attended all my class and it seem to me that I'm busy enough. Haha! I love busy-ness life because it will make me tired enough and fall asleep easily when I off to bed. Lets see. Last yesterday my routine were hectic ones. First, attend two tutorial class and then, career talk. After the talk, I rushed to my another tutorial class. End of tutorial class, I gotta rushed back to hostel. Why? It's reunion dinner with my classmates and celebration of my two classmates, Pei Yin & Hau Chia! :)

It was enjoyable day. And FANTABULOUS-ly because we ate very full and taken many pictures. Another reason because I successfully celebrated my besties' birthday that been neglected for two years. Her birthday is earliest among all the classmates. After dinner, we went to Hau Chia's house for gambling. It was alright for me because we laughed and tired together. I lose RM13. But, I'm much better compare to those who lose quite an amount. :)

Here's come our big family's photo ^^

Done for this part. Next, I went to McDonald with my classmates (Jia, Bit, Pei & Eric) for our dinner. We spent our 3hours time "blow water" at there. Wootz! Gave me a shocked when I look at my watch. In between our conversation, they mentioned about something sound sensitive which I had trying to ignored it for a period of time. Is alright. I know they concern me a lot. And I still need to put more effort to be cold blooded person towards love issues and ENJOY my university life! :)

Done of my post. Good news to be shared. My insomnia seem lesser. Perhaps I'm much cheerful nowadays. I'm glad that I can make it. Be tough, Jonna How! :)

Happy > Sad :)

Logging off. Nights! 

P/s : I'm going back soon! Still left 10hours! =)

Sorry To Myself.

Wondering why this post is titled as "Sorry To Myself"? I was just woke up from my long nap. Then, I got some sudden feeling in my heart. The guilty feeling. It has been years my parent brought me up till my age now. 23, my memory slowly refresh to all those past moment and I realized I am letting my tears drop with or without reason. Perhaps with reason, I still feeling sorry because it was all cried for others. Now memory retorted back, I'm laughing myself. I had been cried all these few years over people that I thought worth it. But now, everything seem change and those people no longer even look me directly into their eyes. 

Silly of me. I thought there will always hope when you believe it. But, I guess that I took it in the wrong way. Never want to admit that I afraid of hurt. Damn afraid. It is because the pain of hurt is like thousands of needle pinch right into heart. It's bleeding but forever you will never see a drop of blood. Sometimes, I wondered. I could have die for many times if those invisible bleeding become visible. 

Hearing to a song namely "Wo Men Dou Pa Tong" sang by Wilber Pan. It's a very nice and inspired song. This moment of me feeling so embarrassed. Why? Because I have waste my time and tears for people and things that no longer have any changes. So, I should move on for the very first of point. It's just that all this while I'm making myself frozen in the point where I took everything still the same. 

Sighs. This moment.. Future seem blurry and I'm so to graduate soon. How life could be? No one could answer it. So, I should put aside too and focusing on whatever I'm having to gone through now. At least I having a bundle of friends that giving me unlimited support and cheers up my life. 

Sorry to myself. Sorry for making my own life so miserable. I want to explore more happiness in my life. Never want to let myself hang in the air without no direction and don't even want to be sad anymore. I will bury all those past memory into the deep part of my heart. Thanks for used to be the one in my life. 

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Learn.

Life is about learning, aren't we? 

When people betray us,

When people hurt us,

When people back stab us,

When people fake around us,

What we learn is "why care so much"...

Life is about learning, aren't we?

We learn to be independent,

We learn to be tough,

We learn to protect ourselves,

We learn to be trust own self,

All those "learning" just to shape ourselves....

Life is about learning, aren't we?

No one can run away from this,

Because thats LIFE...

P/s : I learn to be a person who are not suppose to be myself.. =(

She is The One ♥

Memory retorted back to the moment when I was Year1 Sem 1. The first year of studied in UTAR. Met with a lot people and she, the one that used to be one of my classmates. That moment of me not close to her because we two were in different assignment group and even in the class, we used to sat with those we close with. She used to stay near to my hostel and I remembered I once pass by her house and said ''HI'' to her. It was two years ago. And now, the "she" become my best friends. :) 

She is a very special friend to me. We're so close till we're comfortable with the calling of "Lao Po' to each others. When I was alone, she would offered me to sleep at her house. Or when I was stuck in problem, she would gave me warm hands of her to helped me. When I was happy or sad, she always be the one to share my everything. Till now, she is still doing those "character" in my life. I love her so much. :)

Perhaps sometimes she very blur or think too much, but she is a very cute person. When I laughed, she follow along and when I cried, her tears drop more than I do. When she always lazy to study or last minute doing assignments, I feel disappointed but I will still will help her. Because her face and emotion makes me hard to leave her alone enduring all such tough things. That moment of her is like my sister. :)

She is the one that make me continuing believe that friendship can be forever whenever I'm been upset by many issues relate to friends. She is The One. GOH SHU LING. Thanks for everything. :)

♥ Us ♥

SHIT MYSELF SO MUCH! I THOUGHT I HAD OVERCOME IT BUT WHY I STILL FEEL THE PAIN?! CAN SOMEONE TELL ME THAT I'M REALLY *SHIT* AGAIN AND AGAIN!! WHY TEARS KEEP FALLING?! TELLING MYSELF BUT CAN'T STOP MYSELF FROM CRYING???!!! I HATE MYSELF! I HATE TO INHERIT MY MUM'S SOFT HEARTED ATTITUDE!! HATE!!!!




P/s : Sorry, mum. I mean I doesn't want to be soft hearted. Anyway, ignore me. I'm just having hormone disorder :(

Call a DAY?!

OMG! I'm so freaking boring right now. And I doesn't know what to do. No text book to study. No much nicer drama to watch (actually I'm waiting for my Fairy Tail....) and no sport to play. I'm doing the same thing the whole day which is..........

ONLINE FACEBOOK@MSN!!

I'm totally no different with dead person. No one to talks to and hello, today is Saturday! It suppose to be day where people hang out outside there. Most important, shopping for Chinese New Year. I bet that I will NEVER so alone at Klang. I miss my mum, nephew, siblings and friends. :(

SUPER SIEN!!

Guess what? Kill me before I'm killing myself. Sighs. Logging off.

P/s : Weather at Kampar is super hot and for the first time I drink a lot of water recently without anyone be pushy towards me :)

Ups and...Downs!

Today went to sing K with my gang of friends namely Shu Ling, Grace, Lyne, Jesper and Pei Yin. Haha! We had a great moment with many types of songs. The most makes me totally so confidence sang out were all those Cantonese songs. Cool! Love poured out those heart sickness one shot through songs. I guess I'm totally out of my rational mind because I can laughed non stop and another minutes I cried. OMG! This is known as "Ki Siao". But at least I'm enjoying all those moment with them. :)

After sing K, we went to ate curry me. Yummy! It's spicy but I still love it. Bear with the spicy and I seem cried out yet I still take courage to finished it. Haha! You can said I'm crazy because I seem tortured myself. =P

Actually now I'm really boring. I decided to study but I still laying down on my bed and lazy to wake up. I'm getting lazier recently. Hearing song and still hearing song. One bad news is my mood is under influenced by songs now. Die! Feeling EMO sudden :(

Ignore me. Logging off.

20/1/2011 ♥

Homecoming

Went to watched this movie with my gang of friends in Kampar,

I love this movie so much,

Because its really funny and make me laughed non stop,

[Taxi Driver]

You'll understand when you watch this movie,

This statement make me laughed again and again,

Other than that,

This movie is meaningful and makes me really want to be home,

QUICKLY!

:)

Next stand,

We went to ate our dinner@supper,

Since it was ten something,

I ordered Wan Tan Mee and ate sausage,

It were not delicious at all,

And no taste which makes me BLACKLIST this food,

As usual I'm choosy in foods,

Hehe!

Done dinner and prepare back to Kampar,

But came another next stand,

Went to Station One,

[Jonna.Grace.Lyne.Jesper]

Four of us only,

It was a sudden decision,

Because three of them just finished up their FYP,

So they want to find somewhere sat down to relax,

Anyway we enjoyed and laughed a lot,

Mainly because I'm learning Chinese' idioms,

But seem I failed!

:(

Somehow, 20/1/2011 was really joyful moment and I feel enjoyed :)

P/s: Countdown-ing back to hometown soon! *wootz*

Translation Job ♥

Guess what? First time I'm doing translation job for a comic (2episode). The tasks is to translate Mandarin words into Malay words. Is like almost 6000 statements that needed to translate into Malay words. Lucky thing I'm helping my friends to do half of it. So, consider not bad. Had fun in doing this part time job. So, I required my friend to pass translation Mandarin words to Malay words whenever got. Plus, I can earn money too. =)

Today the first attendance for two tutorial class. My SMPC's tutor is really funny and outgoing guy. Meanwhile, my classmates all consider ok as in so far I know a few of them. Next, my EM's tutor is also funny and cute woman. She said she remembered those attended her lecture class which she pointed at me...Guess what? I did not attend. =P My classmates in this class are all consider as hyper active and hyper funny. Thats makes me and my gang laughed non stop in the class. =)

Just now I viewed my friends' blog and few minutes ago she told me that she have a boyfriend. Wow, I'm really happy to heard this news. Because this guy is the one can make heart beat once again. Can feel those "cupid" feeling expressed out from her. Wish they loving each others all the time. ♥

Recently did not really SS-ing. So, no picture to edit. =( Nevermind, soon will take many photo with my new hp. :) 

Logging off. And continue watch my favorite Taiwan drama. Happy Thaipusam (actually non of my business..) Haha! :)

Change? Or Not?

Change? Or Not? Doesn't matter,

Because what I care is my FUTURE :)

Result...

Feel bored after back from class so online for awhile even I'm in sleepy condition. Nothing much to do. End up I went to the link that my friends sent to me. It's the link where we test our emotional IQ. After answered 106questions, here's the result:

According to your self-report answers, your emotional intelligence is very poor. People who score like you do feel that they have trouble dealing with their own emotions and those of others. They struggle to overcome difficulties in their lives and they are unable to control their moods. It's hard for them to understand how best to motivate themselves and reach their goals. In addition, they find social interactions quite difficult, for several reasons. They may have trouble allowing themselves to get close with others, finding it difficult to be vulnerable enough to establish intimacy. They also report having trouble offering support to others, likely due to the fact that they do not understand where others are coming from or they lack ideas about how best to help. Perhaps by working on your problem areas, you can become more confident in dealing with your own emotions and those of others.

OMG! I had poor emotional intelligence. =( But, I guess few things of what written is quite true. Perhaps I should learn how to increase my emotional intelligence. Sighs.

Off to bed now. Class later. Logging out.

Lonely Midnight

It's lonely midnight and nevertheless, cold weather. Can't asleep so thought of writing blog. Hearing a song that I love so much which came from a Taiwan drama named as "My Lucky Star (放羊的星星)". In this drama, I learned many things about love and promises. Haha! Perhaps thats me. Emotional part of me. Plus, I used to underwent two times of broken heart. =X Or I should said I inherited my mum' emotional sense. Thats why I'm easily influenced whenever anything related to emotion. And worst, my EQ is proved to be low. =(

This is the one I mentioned above (quite long jor)

Forget to updated in blog that I had cut my hair to short ones. I feel my hair grow long a bit compare on the first day I cut it. Quite numbers of people praised that my hairstyle look nice. =) Thanks guys. 

This is ME :)

Still left few hours will be my first day of campus (yesterday ponteng two class jor XD). Why I have a sense that I don't feel I want to attend class? Perhaps CNY's feel is getting strong or I should admit that I'm emo now? Hope everything goes smooth in this final semester. Even though free from FYP but assignments and stress making my shoulder really burden and heavy. Sometimes, this kind of stress making me feel hard to breath. =X I guess pressure from working life will much more than what I have now. Plus, I need to carry my part as member in my family. So, I hope I can play a good role as a good daughter and reliable sister to my siblings. =)

It's 2.43am now. Guess I should off to bed to gain some sleep. Night, people in the world. :'(

Long Long of UPDATE moment~~

Guess what? Yes, I'm back to Kampar! Is been almost 3weeks I seem urged to update my blog but my house' Streamxy line haven't settle yet. Hope it is settle once I back for Chinese New Year' holiday. =)
In within 3weeks of holiday many things happened and my mood was like swing ups and downs but most make me freaking tired is my best friend. Hate to said it but thats the truth. She changed a lot. Thanks to her ex-girlfriend for dumped her because found a new boyfriend. =/
More and more things also couldn't express out so just forget about it then. =) First day back to Kampar and I skipped two classes. Such a bad student but my mum said never mind since I unable to bought yesterday ticket back. Hiak hiak hiak~~~ (mum support me so dad can't said anything). =P

Chinese New Year coming soon. And worst, I haven't really shop for my clothes, shoes, accessories and important.....I'm in middle of making decision to buy a new hp or new camera. Swt-nya!! =.=lll
My sister, Jass support me to buy new hp because can use hp's camera to take picture. So, she asked me to get better hp. Her advice is exactly what I think in my mind. End up, I'm still stuck in making decision. Ermm, what hp to buy? Flip or slide? Or just simple? Headache once I need to search for hp information. =X

I just view a website which written down those hp's prices in Malaysia and view some of hp's picture. So, I'm interested in few of selected picture as showed below :

Sony Ericsson J20 Hazel

Sony Ericsson Natie J105

Sony Ericsson C903

(only available for AP)

So, which I should choose? =(

Perhaps I should go to Uncle's hp shop to see and check those information of prices and function more accurately. =) But, I started to fall in love with SE J20 Hazel. =P

Will done more checking soon. Anyway, gotta off now. Hope I have a nice day. =)