Update Again!!!!

Oh yeah,

He is back to number ONE in my heart once again!

Why Why Why?

Because my group is doing assignment of a company,

And he is the spokesperson!

Haha!

Heart beat when listening to his songs!

*actually i'm just flower heart*

Mood are okay,

But I'm having heartache,

Feeling that this world is really scary,

Full with many fake-ness peeps,

They might backstabber but friendly when facing you,

Or you trust them but they betray you,

Oh gosh,

Life so miserable suddenly!

*oucchh*

But,

*another but again*

Life is realistic,

People can be so materialistic and selfish,

How many of them will really be truthful enough,

There is what I learn in university,

*no working experience*

Sighs!

Yet,

*positive thought*

I do met with peeps that use heart to make friends,

Use heart to treat and care people around them,

And I'm glad that I know them,

I'm pretty sure they know I meant them!

*smiley*

Life,

Can be happy and can be sad in just one day time,

Or can I said one hour time?

*i mean me*

Love is the same too,

You can very love a person,

And in the same time very hate him/her when got hurt,

Friendship too,

You can treat him/her very good,

But another second he/she might just stranger to you,

If argument happens.

*act mature*

Assignments,

Midterms,

Presentation,

When will "you guys" end visiting me?

*stress*

-Done-

27 February 2010. Sunday.

Oh My God,

Yes,

The weather is damn hot,

Making me freaking out,

Totally no mood study my SMPC,

Not even want to continue doing assignment.

But,

*there is always a but*

Just now I enjoyed myself,

Why do I?

Because after the long semester started,

This is first time lunch with my two buddies,

Cerhui & Eugena,

Haha!

Crap a lots,

But one good thing is LAUGH NONSTOP,

Cool babe!

Back of my mind,

I remember that person again,

Sighs!

*blame the hot weather*

Gotta find back my mood to study,

But feel sleepy right now,

So I better off to bed now,

Study later,

Chaos!

-Logging Off-

Tons of Feelings and Thoughts

It's 6 o'clock in the morning,

Laying at the bed,

Suppose to be about falling sleep,

But my brain can't stop working.

SMPC's note jumble up here and there,

Add on with those past memory,

Most important I'm missing my family,

Especially my youngest sister and nephew,

Arghh,

Hate my hyperactive brain!

Entrepreneurship's midterm,

Not so positive,

Wondering SMPC will be alright,

Because I'm totally demotivated to study,

Perhaps last semester,

Feeling like no longer same as previous semesters,

Having those unlimited of "fire" to motivate.

Feel that myself old a lots,

Perhaps I'm tired,

Physically and mentally,

Need the real rest actually.

Shit,

Why tears falling?

Must be eyes feeling tired now,

Or actually I'm crying?

Because I'm missing you?

Don't know.

-Logging Off-

It's 2something in the midnight and I'm still awake. Losing my mood to study and seem emotional. Guess I been influenced by the drama and songs. Who knows? I might gone crazy for another moment. Hearing a song which titled "Lian Ren Wei Man" sang by S.H.E. Suddenly the minds is like thinking of someone. Of how long we do not contact? Almost three month, I assumed. Or perhaps more than that. Wondering how long I do not feel the feeling of "above friendship but below couple" relationship? Memory flash back again. The feeling is sweet but yet hard to defined. Totally gone crazy that time. The mood was swing faster than the weather. Haha! But, thats girls' characteristics. Miss those feeling laying on the bed thought what are you doing and will you missing me too. The now of me not dare to be like exactly I was before this. Because I will definitely either fall asleep or I will being emotional for period of time. At least no harm for missing you when some songs triggering our memory. When song ends, thats the reality I gotta back to. Wondering why typing a post which seem boring and not even me understand what actually I want to talk about. I just feel like hanging in the air now. Sweat! Better stop now before peeps start to thinking I'm drunk. Missing you, thats real :)

He is the man, my Daddy ♥

My parent's photo,

And for sure the man is my beloved daddy!

Today is his birthday,

And for sad to mentioned,

I'm not there to celebrate his birthday,

Hate myself for that,

Because I never want him to feel that just mummy important to me.

Talked about my daddy,

Since I was small,

He loves and cares me a lots,

Especially when I grew up,

Those loves and cares never decrease,

Perhaps it's why my siblings feel jealous sometimes,

Because they think daddy loves me the most.

My daddy never scold me before,

Unless for those things that a children shouldn't do,

Especially going out till midnight,

Or even overnight at friend's house,

You may think that my daddy quite conservative,

But that's how he protect us,

Since he having six daughters.

Today is his birthday,

Another year older,

Why my heart feel pain?

Because I realized daddy is old,

For real he seem vulnerable a lot,

After the huge sickness,

He seem losing the healthy look in him.

Heartache,

He still work and not for him,

But for us,

Daddy loves me a lot,

He always afraid I doesn't have enough food to eat,

So he will always remind me to eat when I'm hungry,

Especially I'm back to Kampar,

He prefer me spending money on food,

Rather than for things that useless.

Today is his birthday,

So allowed me to said few things here,

To utter my heart out,

To let him know my appreciation towards him.

Daddy,

Thanks for the loves and cares,

Thanks for the guide and support,

Thanks for the protection and concern,

You being a great daddy to me in this life,

It is always,

And I'm hoping you're going to be my dad for "many" next life,

I *heart* you so much!

Thanks being my king and I'm always your little princess :)

-Logging Off-